Callie Blackwell woke once more expecting to find her son Deryn lying dead next to her.
The pair lay were sleeping just yards apart in the hospice bedroom where Deryn had been sent to spend his final few days.
He
was in extraordinary pain. His frail body was battered from round after
round of chemotherapy and radiotherapy, he was hooked on the painkiller
morphine, was unable to eat, covered in sores, nauseous and had lost
all his hair.
It was 70 days since his last bone marrow transplant
and it hadn’t worked. The family knew all too well no transplant had
ever grafted after more than 50 days. There was no hope left.
And, after a relentless four year battle with a one in a billion form of cancer , even Deryn was losing his previously indefatigable spirit.
“The
doctors had said there was nothing more they could do,” says Callie,
37, who lives in a small Norfolk village near Bury St Edmunds.
“We celebrated Deryn’s 14th birthday in hospital and then went to the hospice to wait.”
Then,
as Deryn hovered between life and death, Callie and husband Simon took a
huge decision. Unbeknown to medical staff, they decided to give their
son cannabis to ease his pain and anxiety.

Deryn with mum Callie, who has written about his amazing case
From it they created an oil and it was Callie who placed a tiny amount of it in Deryn’s mouth.
It worked and calmed him immediately.
But
what is truly extraordinary happened next. Because the family’s hospice
wait went on and on. And on. Until very slowly Deryn’s condition
improved. And today he is a happy and healthy 17-year-old studying
catering, with friends, a girlfriend and enjoying everything life has to
offer.
The total transformation in her once so sick son still
seems to bewilder Callie. But it is testament to the ferocious love and
determination of one extraordinary mother.
"I’m not here to say
cannabis can cure cancer or is a miracle drug", says Callie, a
thoughtful and intelligent woman who was studying to become a nurse
before Deryn’s last illness.
"But it did help Deryn and so I think we need to ask, ‘could it help others too?'

"Obviously
it is illegal so I was terrified if anyone found out what I was doing I
could be stopped from seeing my dying son or lose my younger son Dylan
to social services. But I had to try it. And it worked."
It was the first week of the school summer holidays and Deryn was 10 when the family’s life first changed for ever.
"Deryn
had always been so incredibly healthy, he’d never had a cold, never had
a day off school, was training with the local rugby team and was the
strongest, fittest boy in his year. HE loved that.
"Then he
started complaining his food tasted like metal and he could feel
something falling inside him when he laid on his side and one morning he
was sick."
He was sent for a blood test and within hours the family were called back urgently to hospital.
"We
were in room 10 in the children’s assessment unit at the Norfolk and
Norwich. Four doctors came in and I already knew it was going to be bad.
They sat down in front of us and said there is no easy way to say this
but Deryn has leukaemia .
"I burst into tears. My husband just looked totally shocked.
Deryn said, ‘what’s leukaemia,’ I replied ‘cancer of the blood’. From
that moment we were totally honest with Deryn about everything that was
happening. Deryn has a mild autism and you have to be very blunt with
him - and we felt it was his body he deserved to know.
"I tell
people I wasn’t a cancer mum once but then within one second in that
room I was and always will be. As soon as those words come out of the
doctor’s mouth your life has changed for ever. For ever."
And
Deryn didn’t just have leukaemia - he had one of the most aggressive
forms with the second highest white blood count the doctors had ever
found.
The next day he began brutal chemotherapy and by the second
day of the September he was back at school. He’d made an extraordinary
recovery - although he was still weak and prone to infection and
suffered various setbacks over the next 18 months.

Then in January 2012 he started to complain about his throat hurting.
"He said it felt like a crisp stuck in his throat. I said ‘could this be a secondary cancer?"
Six months later his tonsils were removed and were found to be cancerous.
It took a further four weeks to say what kind of cancer it was because the doctors had never seen it before.
There
was more chemotherapy and brutal surgery. But it seemed the cancer had
come from his bone marrow and without a transplant there was a big
chance it would only return again.
Again Deryn had chemotherapy to
blast his own bone marrow before a donor was found in Germany. The
family were crushed when the first transplant failed to work. And then a
second failed too.
Deryn’s only hope was to put a small remaining
amount of his own bone marrow back in. Again the first attempt failed.
There was just one last bag of bone marrow left - if that didn’t work
there was no hope for Deryn. He would have no immune system and be
unable to fight any infection.
"By day 46 of the transplant the
bone marrow still wasn’t working," says Callie. "We’d been talking to
the staff for days about it and it was agreed that would be the day all
his antibiotics and treatment were turned off and we went to the
hospice."

“I said to the doctor how long are we talking once it’s switched off? He replied: ‘Three days. A week at most.
“We’d
had so many years building up to this and although the reality was I am
going to lose my son, my first born and it was horrific, just horrific,
we got on with it. There was nothing we could do to stop it and no
amount of screaming and shouting was going to prevent it.
"I knew the doctors had tried everything and I trusted them implicitly but everything they could offer wasn’t enough.”
At the hospice the family celebrated Christmas on December 14th knowing Deryn wouldn’t make it until December 25th.
"He was so ill by then," says Callie. "He was being sick, he
hadn’t eaten food in seven months, his mouth was full of blisters, he
couldn’t swallow, his body was covered in sores, he had an infected hand
where he’d caught it in the side of his bed and he was quite down.
"Throughout
everything he’d always said, ‘you don’t need to worry about me mum, I’m
not going to die'. But now he was saying he was ready to go. He said he
either wanted to be dead or be well but he was neither and he’d been
like that for years.
"He’s a very spiritual person too and he said he had dreams about passing and it was beautiful and peaceful. He wasn’t scared."
In
this life though there was only suffering and anxiety for Deryn - and
it was that which made Callie and Simon decide to give him cannabis
which they’d read online could provide comfort for people suffering as
he was.
Then one day a week later after she started the treatment,
Deryn’s bandage on his infected hand fell off. What lay beneath the
bandage astonished the family. The hand had healed.
"I knew you can’t even produce cells without a bone marrow,"
says Callie. ‘It meant he was getting better. The doctors rushed in and
he had more tests in his bone marrow which showed his blood count was
improving. The do not resuscitate signs were shredded. Deryn wasn’t
dying any more."
Over the next few weeks Callie continued to
secretly administer the cannabis - and by altering the doses could see
it was having a direct result on his blood count.
Within weeks the family had left the hospice and Deryn was so improved Callie stopped the cannabis treatment.
Since then he has never had any further interventions and gone from strength to strength.
In many ways it seems nothing short of a miracle.
Yet Callie is not so sure.

"I am very scared of doing
this because it is illegal but I feel I have to do it. And I don’t like
the ‘cure’ word. But I do know Deryn is with us now.
"Through
everything I. Always believed things happen for a reason and now I think
maybe that reason is to tell Deryn’s story to others. And hopefully it
may start a wider conversation about treatments for cancer and help
others. Then, yes, it will all have been for a good reason."
Source:http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/i-gave-dying-son-cannabis-10103387
Source:http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/i-gave-dying-son-cannabis-10103387
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